Forever In My Heart

Sorry to those of you who get both my journals!

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 00:41:58 GMT

I urge you all...
...to stop by a local place that sells CD's and pick up the new 12 Stones album, Potter's Field. I picked up a couple of copies this morning, and it is EXCELLENT! I urge you all so strongly that I will even clue you in to a few places where you can get it for really cheap-

Best Buy- $6.99
Target- $7.98

Run and buy a copy TODAY! I mean it!!! If not today, it's important that as many copies be sold this week as possible, so please- pick up a copy today or tomorrow or sometime this week! If you like hard rock- I really don't think you'll be dissapointed- and if you get it at Best Buy or Target, it's not a bad price to pay AT ALL to check out some new music!

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 22:06:40 GMT

Take the What Fruit Are You? test by Ellen!

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 05:07:07 GMT

Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet
Only when I stop to think about it
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you?

Sun, 11 Apr 2004 21:32:43 GMT

Happy Easter, y'all! :)

Tue, 06 Apr 2004 01:18:02 GMT

My Godfather's leukemia is back, which means no transplant, which means that they have given him a couple of months to live.

Blah.

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 07:50:15 GMT

I really feel like I need to take a break and not talk to him again until he decides at some point that he feels like taking the time to talk to me.

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 01:09:21 GMT

I rarely take the time to update here. Mostly, I update under oh_the_drama, but I want to keep this journal going for the stuff that I don't want as publicized as in the other journal.

I ran into my Godmother this afternoon at WalMart. Chemo is going well for my Godfather, which she told me the other day when she e-mailed me. If they can get the cancer back under control, they can go ahead and do the bone marrow transplant. She said today that the chemo is going really well, and if it continues to do so, the transplant will be under way before long. However, if the chemo doesn't kill the cancer again (or get it below 20%, I think it was), they can't do the transplant, and at that point they will give my Godfather 2 months. So, things are just really iffy. So if you could all just take the time to say a little prayer for him, I would appreciate it greatly.

The upcoming week will be so busy. I'm not looking forward to it. I work Monday. Tuesday, I have a doctor's appointment and then a meeting that night for work. Wednesday and Thursday I work, and then I have a class Thursday night. I work Friday and maybe do something with some friends Friday night, and then I have CPR on Saturday, which I suck at. It's going to be a sucky week.

I was going to do something with some friends tonight, and then I decided not to because I had already told my family I was going to spend time with them. So one of my friends is pissed at me. Life is lovely, isn't it?

Anyway, I hope everyone over here is well! :)

Fri, 27 Feb 2004 02:31:29 GMT

Heart of Chocolate

What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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Pics!

Wed, 25 Feb 2004 05:03:50 GMT

My birthday party pics are up:

http://www.geocities.com/wintersmusic/25th.html

Strange

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 20:59:36 GMT

So I was thinking earlier today that I am so sick of doing what I know I am suppose to do to keep everyone else happy, and I was thinking about the fact that I have been basically overprotected my whole entire life, and how those two things keep me from being able to do so much that I want to do because of the expectations of my family... and about how I really want to just break away from the expectations and be the me that I really am when no one else is looking over my shoulder... and then I was looking a few minutes ago at my horoscope on AOL, and I was surprised...

"You really do hear a different drummer and you try to march to your own drum beat. Your rhythms are uniquely yours. Now, it's even more obvious as you may seek to push your need for freedom right over the edge of some cliff. The problem is that you may not realize how steep the cliff is until it's too late. Even if you think you know what is happening, don't jump to the conclusions that seem obvious. It's all changing. Question reality."

Birthday And Other Stuff

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 03:51:23 GMT

My Dad came over today and brought me a birthday card with some money in it. I honestly don't know the last time he gave me a card- and the card he gave me was the sweetest card ever, and it made me cry... and cry... and cry. He also brought over a heart shaped box of chocolates for my sister and I. He use to do that when we were kids, but he hasn't done that in years, either. He has acted so much different since Grandpa died- I think he thinks it's going to happen to him now, too.

3 of the ladies at work bought me a stuffed moose that smells like chocolate. It's so cute!!! It's a really cute addition to my moose collection. I was so suprised, because only 1 of the 3 usually does anything for my birthday. I also got some stuff from another friend from work- shower gel, body spray, stationary, a note pad, and Doritos. My sister in Tampa sent me this round decorative box that has palm trees all over it, and on the inside it has an address book, a journal, and a pencil. She also sent a little heart shaped box of chocolates and a free movie pass that she got that doesn't apply to any theaters in Tampa, but works at the theaters here.

Michael called me tonight to tell me Happy Birthday in case he isn't able to call tomorrow, but he's going to try to. I was soooooo impressed that he remembered that tomorrow is my birthday all by himself lol. I was shocked. He got total brownie points for that!!! He also called yesterday to tell me Happy Valentine's Day.

Birthday aside, Jesus left the sweetest away message up on his aim tonight- "MAD DEEP, I KNOW... BUT I REALLY, REALLY MISS - MIKE CAPUTO, LU BALZ, DEVIN, RICH, LANCASTER (MY NEW BOYS), WINTER, ELISA, ELAINE, J-SIN, VIOLENT J, AND SHAGGY... MOTHER F'N LOVE COULDN'T BE ANY DEEPER HERE INSIDE... IF U WERE NAMED ALL U GOTTA KNOW IS UR "MY REASON WHY"... :( " I was like "ohhh!!!! My Reason Why!!!!!! *sniff sniff*"

Saturday night, a bunch of my friends (12 were invited, I've heard back from 10) are coming over for my birthday party (my Mom and Sister love me!), and then we're going out to a bar or 2. 1 for sure to play pool, but maybe another one to do some general partying, too. I can't wait, it will be so much fun.

Just from all of those things... I have had the absolute best birthday ever already, and it's not even my birthday for another 2 hours! This is the 1st year since I was 19 (aside from my 21st) that I haven't spent the last 2 months depressed and dreading my birthday. Although I am dreading the age I will be-25- that depression won't sink in until at after the party, I don't think.

Sun, 15 Feb 2004 01:38:00 GMT

Happy Valentine's Day!!!!!!

Bring on the Joey! ;)

Sat, 07 Feb 2004 18:58:00 GMT

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First Partner	Joey Fatone
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Ruh Roh Skettios

Wed, 04 Feb 2004 11:16:29 GMT

Pity my kids at work today... I didn't sleep AT ALL last night.

Happiness

Tue, 03 Feb 2004 22:53:28 GMT

I have been really happy lately. I was a bit pissy on Saturday, but that aside, I have been extremely happy for weeks. I have been so happy that today I had "My Immortal" by Evanesence on repeat because I just got the CD and I like the song- and I had to turn it off because I couldn't get into it because it was too sad. That, my friends, has NEVER happened. Whatever is wrong with me?

Thanks RevsPepsiGal :)

Sun, 01 Feb 2004 07:33:20 GMT

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:(

Sun, 25 Jan 2004 06:48:13 GMT

Guys are so sucky.

Smile, people!

Fri, 23 Jan 2004 04:06:57 GMT

Tomorrow is Friday!!! :)

It's a very good day.

Tue, 20 Jan 2004 17:22:23 GMT

As always, things come back full circle. I miss him insanely, he some how comes back out of the blue.

Him

Sun, 18 Jan 2004 05:50:41 GMT

I haven't talked to the one and only *him* in awhile, and I was really fine with it, because that's how it goes. We have our incredibly-lots-of-talking phases, followed by our not-talking-for-awhile phases, and I don't have a problem with it at all. I know that, eventually, he will be back around again. So it's cool.
The past few days, though, I have missed *him* like crazy, which is stupid of me because life is what it is, and the way things are is how they will always be. I just love him so damn much- and I am starting to miss him equally as much.

New Journal

Fri, 16 Jan 2004 03:04:15 GMT

I will also be posting under oh_the_drama as well as here from now on- different things on each for the most part. I'll be putting a link on my website for oh_the_drama, so the things that I don't really want out there to the general public will not be posted there- they'll be posted here instead. But just a heads up that I will at some point be adding you all to my friends list over there if that is ok with everyone! :) So feel free to add my other journal to your list if you would like to do so.

Thu, 15 Jan 2004 04:17:17 GMT

My Godfather's cancer is back, and it's back big-time. If they can get it into remission again, they want to do a bone marrow transplant, which means having to find a donor that matches.

I am so sick of cancer!!! Between the scare with my Mom, then the old friend of our family getting it, then my Godfather getting it, and then his remission, and then my Grandpa getting diagnosed one day and literally dying the next, and then the friend of our family dying, and then my Godfather coming out of remission, and then today finding out that another friend of the family may have it (we'll know for sure on Friday)... and I feel like I am forgetting someone. I just want it all to go away. Enough is enough. I'm starting to wonder if it's going to go through everyone I love. And, yeah, my next-to-oldest sister had it several years back, as well. But that's beside the point.

Today, 2 of my favorite kids ever came to visit at work! Mariah and Derek, who I have known since they were both babies. They left to go to a new school at the beginning of this school year, and it was a really really hard thing to lose them because I have been really, really close to their family for the past almost 8 years. This was their second time visiting, and they're going to come visit again in February. It totally made my day, and surprised me.

Whoo hoo!

Sun, 11 Jan 2004 19:04:23 GMT

You would make friends with Jack Kelly. You like to
be around people who are always in the middle
of the action, but sometimes get their heads
stuck up in the clouds. Thats alright though,
dreaming big doesn't cost a cent. :)

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Wed, 07 Jan 2004 00:50:00 GMT

Survey:

1.What is your full name? Winter J. **********

.2. Are you happy with it? The first name, yeah lol

.3. Are you named after anyone? A character from "Edge of Night", Winter Austin. Plus I was born in the wintertime.

.5. Your screenname: WinterStarPromo

.6. Would you name a child of yours after you? Nah

.7.Then what would you name your children? Girl- Samantha Grace; Boy- Christian *several middle name choices- Michael, Dominic, Donavan, Joseph, his Dad's first or middle name*

.8. If you were a girl, what would your name be? Either Winter or Samantha, Sam for short.

.9. If you could switch names with a friend, who would that be? I'm actually quite happy with Winter.

.10. Are there any typos that people do with your name ? Witner.

BASICS
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.12. Your gender: Female

.13. Straight/gay/bi? Straight

.15. Want to be gay? Nope
.16. Your birthdate? Feb 16, '79

.17. Your age: 24 for another month

.18. Age you act: depends on the situation

.19. Age you wish you were: 21 and then stop there

.20. Your height: 5'3

.21. The color of your eyes: dark brown

22. Happy with it? I wish they were blue.

23. The color of your hair: dark brown. black when it's spiked.

.25. Left/right/ambidextrous? left
6. Your living arrangement? Apartment with Mom and Jennifer, my oldest sister. Plus 2 pets.

.27. Your family: What of it?

.28. Have any pets? Yes, 2. Gracie the boy bunny, and Harlie the girl puppy.
.29. What's your job? Day care teacher by day; band promoter by night

.30. Piercings? 1 in each ear. I'm thinkin' on getting another one.

.31. Tattoos? Nope. Would like a music note.
.32. Obsessions? Music.

.33. Addiction? Music. Pop.

.35. Do you speak another language? Not fluently.

.36. Have a favorite quote? Yep, a few.
.37. Do you have a webpage? Yep, a few.

DEEP THOUGHTS
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.38. Do you live in the moment? For the most part, yeah. And in the past a little more than I'd like to.

.39. Do you consider yourself tolerant of others? Yep.

.40.Do you have any secrets? Sure.
.41. Do you hate yourself? Sometimes.
.42. Do you like your handwriting? Nah.

.43. Do you have any bad habits? Who doesn't?
.44. What is the compliment you get most from people? That I'm "cool".

.45. If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? "Hell Hole Nightmare"

.46. What's your biggest fear? Losing everyone that I care about.

.47. Can you sing? Nope, but I do it anyway.

.48. Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool? lol no, not to look cool. But there was that whole WalMart incident, featuring none other than Donna, Jackie, and Lori lol.

.49. Are you a loner? Sometimes.

.50. What are your no. 1 priorities in life? My family. Music.

.51. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? I hope so.

.52. Are you a daredevil? Not so much.

.53. Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself? Yeah.

.54. Are you passive or aggressive? Depends on what it's about. When it comes to music, I tend to be aggressive.

.55. Have you got a journal? like, 4 of them.
.56.What is your greatest strength and weakness? Don't feel like thinking about it right now.

57. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? I would be less inclined to do what everyone else wants me to do.

.59. How do you vent? Write lyrics. Listen to music. Write in my journals.

.60. Do you think you are emotionally strong? So I'm told. But I think I hide things well *MOST* of the time.
.61.Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life? Yeah. I regret fighting with my Grandma before she died.

.62. Do you think life has been good so far? I've been very fortunate.

.63. What is the most important lesson u've learned from life? You need to take time for your family. And you need to work for the things you want. And you can't let rejection tear you apart.

.64. What do you like the most about your body? my mouth?

.65. And least? ........? Most everything lol

.66. Do you think you are good looking? Nope

.67. Are you confident? When I'm dealing with music stuff, yes. Otherwise, no.

.68. What is the fictional character you're most like? I really feel Cannie Shapiro sometimes. Only a little less... obsessive. I think.

.69. Do people know how you feel? With the exception of a very few people, I generally try not to let people know how I feel about things.

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DO YOU.../:)
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.71. Smoke? Sometimes.

.72. Do drugs? Nope.

.73. Read the newspaper? The Milestones. Sometimes the want ads.

.74. Pray? Daily.

.75. Go to church? Not since they made us attend mass in high school.

.76. Talk to strangers who IM you? sure.

.77. Sleep with stuffed animals? 2 of 'em.
.78. Take walks in the rain? Nah. I like rain. I just hate when my glasses get wet. :)

.79. Talk to people even though you hate them? Only because I feel the need to be nice to everyone.

.80. Drive? Not usually, no. I don't have a license, which is pretty sad considering I'm 24. But, here's my logic. As it is right now, I pay 1/3 of everything on the car that my Mom and sister share. And just from the broked-ness of paying 1/3, I know there's no way in hell that I can afford my own car. And, although I could drive the car that I currently own 1/3 of, there is no way in hell I would. It's just not worth the bitching and guilt trips that I would get if anything happened to the car while it was in my possession. It is entirely not worth the stress.

.81. Like to drive fast? N/A

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WOULD OR HAVE YOU EVER...:>
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.82. Liked your voice? I hate my voice.

.83. Hurt yourself? Yes I have, but not intentionally. I just do stupid things like wear swishy pants and forget I'm wearing them and then slide right on out of booths, hehe.

.84. Been out of the country? Nope.
.85. Eaten something that made other people sick? I don't think so?

.86. Had sex? Does it matter to you?

.87. Been unfaithful? No.

.88. Been in love? Yes.

.89. Done drugs? No.

.90. Gone skinny dipping? Nope.

.91. Had a medical emergency? Yep.

.92. Had surgery? Yes.

.93. Ran away from home? No, my ass would've gotten kicked.

.94. Played strip poker? Nope.
.95. Gotten beaten up? Does my sister count? Kidding.

.96. Beaten someone up? Again, does my sister count? hehe. No.

.97. Been picked on? sure.

.98. Been on stage? hell yes
.100. Slept outdoors? eww, no.

.101. Thought about suicide? Nah.

.102. Pulled an all-nighter? Yep.

.103. If yes, what is your record? nothing major, like 2 1/2 or 3 days.

.104. Gone one day without food? probably when I've been sick.
.105. Talked on the phone all night? yeah.

.106. Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex? yes.

.107. Slept all day? yeah, pretty much all day.
.108. Killed someone? noooooo
.109. Made out with a stranger? yes. that whole situation was stupid and dumb.
.110. Had sex with a stranger? no
.111. Thought you're going crazy? I've wondered a time or two.

.112. Kissed the same sex? Well, yeah. My Grandma's a girl, right? And my dog, she's a girl, and stuff.

.113. Done anything sexual with the same sex? Nope.

.114. Been betrayed? sure.

.115. Had a dream that came true? Yeah!

.116. Broken the law? I suppose, but nothing major.

.117. Met a famous person? Uh huh.

.145. Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? Probably.

.146. Stolen anything? No.

.147. Been on radio/tv? Yes, both.

.148. Been in a mosh-pit? Not so much IN one.

.149. Had a nervous breakdown? not a breakdown no

150. Considered religious vocation? no

.151. Been critisized about your sexual performance? lol no
.152. Bungee jumped? nope
.153. Had a dream that kept coming back? I think so
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CLOTHES and other fashion shit :">
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.154. Shoe brand? Skechers, baybee

.155. Brand of clothing? Anything that I think looks cool

.156. Cologne/perfume? Lucky You

.157. What are you normally wearing to school? Well, to the school that I work at, pretty much the same clothes I wear everywhere else.

.158. How about parties? The same stuff I wear everywhere else.

.159. Wear hats? Not usually. My newsboy hat rocks, though. But I still don't wear it often.
.160. Judge other people by their clothing? No way.

.161. Wear make-up? duh. I heart makeup.

.162. Favourite place to shop? Walmart and Target
.163. Favourite article of clothing? cool jeans

.164. Are you trendy? sometimes
.165. Would you rather wear a uniform to school? Hmm. We always had a dress code at my schools, but not an actual uniform. No, I don't think I'd rather wear a uniform. Dress codes sucked enough.
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.166. Believe in life on other planets? Maybe

.167. Miracles? Yes
.168. Astrology? No, but it's fun to read

.169. Magic? No
.170. God? Yes

.171. Satan? Yes

.172. Santa? YES

.173. Luck? Not so much, but sometimes I'm lucky, so who knows.

.174. .................... Yeah, you too!

.176. Yin and Yang? No.

.177. Witches? Yep, there are some.
.178. Easter Bunny? Uh huh.
.179. Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? Yep, if you really love someone enough.

.180. Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? No.
.181. Do you wish on stars? Yes. Scientific stars. Rock stars. Ya know. Stars. :)
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AMIGOS >:D<
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.187. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends? Hmm... not off the top of my head. but people are people, who cares?

.188. Who is your best friend? I don't have just one.

.189. Who's the one person that knows most about you? I don't think there is probably one person. Most people get bits and pieces- so random people know more about certain things, but probably not one person knows the most. Maybe Soos, though? I talk to him about most everything.

190. Gives Best advice? A few people.

.191. Your favourite inside joke? Jackie, Donna, and Lori, probably. Or the wrong house.

.192. Thing you're picked on most about? Knowing too much about bands.

.193. Who's your longest known friend? Liz, since 1st grade.
194. Newest? Steph, I think.

.195. Shyest? Waffle maybe? And sometimes Kristine.

.196. Funniest: Soos and Cass and Cristin

.198. Closest? There are a few

.199. Weirdest? I think I win that title.

.200. Smartest? All of my friends are smart.

.201. Ditziest? I win that one, too.

.202. Friends you miss being close to the most?

.203. Last person you talked to online? Maybe Soos last night?

.204. Who do you talk to most online? I talk to alot of people alot online.

.205. Who are you on the phone with most? Michael.
.206. Who do you trust most? Not one specific person. A few people.

.207. Who listens to your problems? A few people.

.208. do you fight most with? I don't fight. I get internally pissed, most generally.
.209. Whos the nicest? Traci

.210. Who is the most outgoing? Kristine

.211. Who's the best singer? Amanda

.213. Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend? Nope

.214. Who's your second family? My Godparents' family.

.215. Do you always feel understood? No way.

.216. Who's the loudest friend? Dunno.

217. Do you trust others easily? Sometimes.

.218. hmm where is it? Under the bed.

.219. Name one person who's arms you feel safe in: Suckily enough, it wouldn't be the person that I love.

.220. Do your friends know you? Yeah.

.221. Friend that lives farthest away? Eddie, in Puerto Rico
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LOVE, and all that <3<3
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.222. Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seing that as a section title? lol no

.223. Do you remember your first love? Yes

.224. Still love him/her? I don't know that I still love him, if I do, I'm definitely not IN LOVE with him, but I care about him.
.225. Do you consider love a mistake? I consider love a learning experience.

Hmm...

Tue, 06 Jan 2004 18:20:29 GMT

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